At the End of That Memory - At the End of Those Memories - Episode 128
Side Story 1 Episode 22. Pour Sejin(9)
It wasn’t difficult to make up my mind. In the months I’ve had him in front of me, I’ve been worse off than this
I lived with so many regrets that I couldn’t get over them. I delayed for a long time with a heart that could not be broken in the end.
So, crawling underfoot at the last moment didn’t feel like a big deal.
I sent him out of the study and spent the night organizing what I wanted to say to him. We sincerely welcome the launch of ‘Sejin’
To congratulate him and confess to him properly. If you get down on your knees and pray for your mistakes, things will get worse.
Because there might even be a possibility of words.
The ring was already put to one side. Because I always took it off when I was working, my fingers were like something else.
There were no national roads left. Now that I think about it, Jeong Se-jin’s fingers have become cleaner too. traces of the past
There was nothing I could wish for if I could erase everything and start anew.
I felt like I wanted to hold on to the rope, so I paid much more attention to my outfit than usual. I don’t know
It would be nice if he, who likes my face, could tempt me like this. My efforts like this
Perhaps because of this, he looked at me carefully and spoke in an admiring voice.
‘Today… … ‘You did care.’
He blinked blankly, then lowered his eyes sheepishly when he heard the words ‘important day’.
all. He had a curious expression, but he seemed to be planning on eating first.
‘I hope it hits you in the mouth.’
To conclude, the meal with him wasn’t bad. She had a great vibe and the conversation was fun.
And he also looked in a good mood the whole time. ‘Sejin’s’ plans and future prospects
Chapter possibility. The face that briefed such things was that of a capable representative.
‘So the planning team… … .’
It was a shame it was late. I should have seen him at the launch event. loved one
I should have seen that brightly shining moment clearly with my own eyes.
‘I’m just greedy for no reason.’
In my heart, I wanted to keep it for myself without showing it to anyone. Even at this moment, I
I was imagining tying him to my side so he couldn’t go anywhere. his insomnia
Since medicine couldn’t solve the problem, I hoped he would yearn for me, the only solution.
‘What are you dreaming about?’
‘… … hmm.’
It was a meaningless question. It was just a small chat meant to change the subject. Usually a dream
The things that are dreamed up are often absurd and have no reality at all. back to him
I didn’t think this answer would be particularly nutritious either.
‘I dream about being raped by a stranger.’
However, the answer that came back was shocking enough to make me wake up. Someone poured cold water
My mind turned completely white as if I had put it on.
‘I don’t know when it started… … Sometimes I dream for no reason.’
Why was it forgotten? The moment he cried after reading his poetry book. Anxiety driven to the edge of a cliff
and even the fear of unknown possibilities.
There is a big difference between thinking in your head and experiencing it directly. confess your past to him
I couldn’t even imagine what I was going to do, but when I thought that everything might be found out, my feet started to feel empty.
I had a feeling. Her eyes were filled with darkness as if she had fallen into endless darkness.
I threw it away.
‘It’s just Mr. Kwon Ido. ‘Everything from the beginning.’
My doctor said that. The reason his heat cycle became irregular was because of my influence.
go. Since there is no immunity to the dominant alpha’s pheromone, the cycle accelerates to follow the opponent nearby.
I lost.
‘So that’s it… … . Last night, the other person turned out to be Mr. Kwon Ido.’
All your problems started because of me. I thought I was the solution to insomnia, but actually
I guess it was just me who was the cause. The traces I left behind can’t be erased, so I turn back in time
Even now, it was only having a negative impact.
‘Anyway, so… … .’
I couldn’t breathe well. I couldn’t even blink my eyes or move my lips.
all. It wasn’t at this level even when I was shot, but someone would hold on to my heart so tightly that it would explode.
I felt like I was being held captive. The blood in my entire body cools and sinks from my toes to the floor.
It seemed.
‘… … Mr. Kwon Ido?’
My arrogance almost made me make another mistake. Dare to stay by his side
you. Even the name coming out of his mouth made me feel ashamed. I’m not going to erase all traces of the past
La, I had overlooked that my job was to completely erase people.
‘I have something I want to say.’
My head was surprisingly calm. Endless things to say come to mind, and nothing happens
He maintained a calm expression. It didn’t stop her fingertips from shaking, but still…
I think he showed a somewhat natural attitude.
‘I don’t plan on getting married.’
Yes, it should have been like this from the beginning. The reason we got engaged instead of getting married is because of our engagement.
That’s why I didn’t announce it.
‘This meaningless engagement should end now.’
This wonderful meal was a chance for you to become completely free from me. my first promise
This was also the moment that had to finally come true. The process may have been a little different, but the result
Because it’s not okay to go astray.
‘If you want to go out, you can go out anytime.’
He couldn’t say anything, and I couldn’t look at him until the end. our engagement
He added as an excuse that this won’t be an obstacle and won’t hold you back.
It’s just that. I could see him clenching his fists, but even he couldn’t pretend to notice.
all.
If there was another way, I would have done it. But this was my best, I can’t compromise any more
was the last conscience. It is better for him to finish while he can, and to give up.
Because it will be very beneficial.
As soon as I got home, I left him and went up to his room, and the place I headed to was the study where I always stayed.
all. In a place where there wasn’t even a light on, I sat down at the desk and stared blankly at the drawer. bullet
I shouldn’t have thrown it away, I thought about that one more time. I have no choice but to make this choice.
I continued to resent Cheongham.
Should I call it sadness? Or something similar to a feeling of helplessness over a situation that cannot be resolved. my
The despair or frustration he felt when it was forcibly imprinted on him.
In a little while, he would pack up all his belongings and leave my house. I feel betrayed
So, you might never want to see my face again. Since I was preparing from the beginning
Who would have imagined that a bitter breakup would hurt this much?
‘You helped me today, so no matter what happens, next time I will take Kwon Ido’s side.
‘That’s it.’
The desire to hold on to that dreamlike promise was like a chimney. I haven’t received the promised gift yet
I was filled with the feeling that I couldn’t do it and that I wanted to hang on like a miserable person.
‘Last night, the other person turned out to be Mr. Kwon Ido.’
However, the wound I left behind left a deep scar on him that cannot be ignored. frozen
Like a time bomb that doesn’t know if it will explode, it will rise to the surface one day and destroy this relationship.
I will say this. In a pathetic situation where you can’t even tell the truth, you stay there like a fool.
There was nothing I could do but .
‘… … .’
The moment the study door opened, I thought I was hearing an auditory hallucination. I go too far
I’m longing for him, so now I’m just doing it in vain. This uncontrollable anger
And that feeling of betrayal was just my imagination.
‘… … I thought you were packing your bags.’
He looked at me silently, and as soon as I opened my mouth, his expression distorted. Say hello
When asked if he had come to visit, he closed the door and took a step towards me.
‘… … no.’
‘… … .’
‘I just can’t understand it.’
My son-in-law was too dark. I can’t tell if this is a dream or reality.
as. The moment even the light seeping through the crack in the door disappeared, the illusion of falling into the abyss along with it.
I heard this.
‘Why are you ending this engagement?’
I was buried in the darkness like this and hoped time would stop. rarely speaks in a sharp voice
As I looked at him, I felt like I wanted to bring out everything inside me and show him. Right away
The dangerous atmosphere was constricting my breathing, as if I was about to break apart.
‘You said you liked me.’
Funny enough, that one word sounded sweeter than the ten confessions. In my ear, in every corner
As if it was fading away, my sinking expectations began to swell.
‘I said I wanted to beg you to choose me.’
‘… … .’
‘Then you should beg instead of doing this.’
I want to do that too, Sejin. She fell to her knees, flat on the floor, holding the crotch of her pants.
I wish I could beg for it.
‘Because of you, I became greedy that I didn’t want to be.’
The sincerity expressed in detail sounded like crying. A feeling of sadness, anger, and regret
The sentiment was conveyed entirely with his heartbeat. I want to make an excuse that I’m not abandoning you
But he didn’t even listen to that and questioned me.
‘Why are you so anxious, Mr. Kwon Ido?’
If I had drank two bottles of liquor, I might have said it honestly. If he did, he would look for me
I wouldn’t have to hear the truth every now and then.
‘why.’
‘… … .’
‘Are you afraid I’ll die before your eyes?’
I felt like I had been stabbed in the back. Words that should not come out of his mouth were sharply forged.
It jumped out.
‘Or are you afraid that you will follow me to death?’
Because my fear came from your absence, I was never afraid of dying after you.
all. On the contrary, the rest was pleasant, so the fear I feel now is not that reason either.
It was. I just did it because I was afraid that you would find out everything.
‘What do I not remember?’
He wasn’t an idiot, but I ignored that fact and showed a complacent attitude. I’m that
It would be strange if he didn’t also feel uncomfortable about knowing so much about it.
all. He warned me that he had no intention of pretending not to know the parts he had been ignoring until now.
was doing
‘You’re not going to call this all a coincidence, are you?’
It was a coincidence that I created with my own hands, and in the end, it was a fate that had to be cut off because it could not become inevitable.
all. This is the result of deceiving him in the name of atonement through actions that are nothing short of intentional.
The crab is back.
‘… … ‘Do you even like me?’
That suspicion hurt more than the swear words he uttered. My whole life is tailored to you
It had been a long time since he had been defeated, but now even that was being denied.
‘Am I meaningful to you?’
Even if I was doubted about everything, I didn’t want to deceive my heart. Even if this is my greed
Also, I hoped you would at least understand my sincerity. Not all my actions were malicious
la. That all those mistakes weren’t meant to break you.
‘Have you ever been honest with me?’
‘… … .’
‘You say you do everything I want, but have you ever thought about what I really want?’
‘… … .’
‘You say you’re doing it for me, but in the end, it’s all for you.’
‘… … .’
‘It’s all about self-satisfaction, now.’
He pushed me in a harsh tone that he had never shown before. Everything is true without exception
It was a song, and it was a fact that left no room for excuses. The things you did when you masturbated that it was for him.
This was actually just a simple desire of mine that he never asked for.
‘I was stupid.’
‘… … .’
‘I didn’t even know we had a relationship like this.’
He said it was at best. The times I have accumulated, the times we have accumulated. So precious and precious
Those moments that I couldn’t even touch.
‘… … you.’
Were you angry or resentful? The emotions he felt were conveyed so clearly that even I
It seemed like the castle had become blurred.
‘You say that because you don’t know anything.’
I felt like hell every moment. I’m afraid that if I close my eyes, everything will disappear, so I feel at ease even for a day
There wasn’t a day when I could sleep well. Because he remembers everything he doesn’t remember, our last
What this means is that we always had to clearly picture what was going to happen.
‘… … Then you won’t have to worry in the future.’
He looked straight at me with a smile that didn’t fit the situation. I’m used to the dark
Jin could clearly see what kind of expression he was making in his eyes. Corners of the mouth tilted up
was laughing at me as if showing off.
‘Now there will be no more days for me.’
Ah, it seems I looked at the last part too lightly. I chose it with my own hands, so it will be okay.
And, since I wasn’t abandoned, I can endure it. Like a fool, I believed that.
‘And you won’t die in front of your eyes.’
Those words sounded very subtle. As if I could die somewhere other than in front of my eyes.
this. As if he was intentionally trying to hurt me.
Jeong Se-jin looked at me with a faint smile and even said goodbye, as familiar as that day.
I spat it out.
‘I’m doing well, Mr. Kwon Ido.’
‘… … .’
‘Take care, for once.’
I remembered Jeong Se-jin smiling at me. That gaze of absolute tranquility. tear your ears
Like a strong gunshot sound. The bright red liquid that was bursting out, the heartbeat that seemed like it was going to explode, the arms
The body temperature that was gradually getting colder even when I was holding him, the deep despair I felt the moment his breathing stopped.
even.
‘Sejin.’
You should have gone when I let you go.
Why do you make me break you again with my own hands?
‘You said you weren’t letting go, you were throwing it away.’
Jeong Se-jin, who fearlessly attacked me, seemed relieved only after he finally had me in his hands.
all. You don’t run away, you embrace me, and it’s no longer possible for me to shake you off with my hands.
It was. With reason far away, my last patience was not to act harshly.
That day, we made our second imprint. Not pushed down by force, completely you
It was an imprint that the two of us formed. The memories you lost, what will remain at the end of those memories?
Without even knowing.
The engagement for you ended there.
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The future changes for very trivial reasons, but it also doesn’t change in most cases. security team leader
As if I met that woman again. And as if we were imprinted again. I can’t
After passing through so many turning points, the ending you reach may not be very different.
all.
I didn’t even tell him how painful it was for the three months we broke up with him. I’m that
He must have been vividly feeling the emotions he felt while giving up. misshapen imprint
No, but through the imprint between the two of us. All of that must have been conveyed to Jeong Se-jin.
all.
‘… … ‘That’s what you thought.’
He didn’t fall asleep until my whole story was over, and at the end he muttered:
all. Even though I omitted unnecessary parts, quite a long time passed when I kept my mouth shut.
There was. While we were quietly exchanging glances, another light sentiment flowed from his mouth.
came out
‘You look stupid. Both of us.’
Yeah, that was really stupid. Even if I go back to the past again, I make the same choice
I will repeat this.
‘So you broke up with me and tried to kill me?’
There was no need to answer that. The day I cried uncontrollably in front of him, I cried with my mouth.
I confessed everything. Knowing that fact, he must have laughed and muttered as well.
‘Sometimes I see you as reckless… … .’
They provided all the stepping stones, but there was no way for me to break away. When I came to my senses, I saw a swamp
I was falling into the water, but there was nothing around to catch. you scare me again
I couldn’t even appear in front of you because I wasn’t confident that I would see you in a panic.
Even if something broke somewhere, it was clearly broken. I’m so broken I’ll never have to go again
I thought I might not be able to hit it. I sleep in the perfume you used every night
I also secretly hoped that I wouldn’t have to open my eyes tomorrow.
So, I planned to leave you and die at the right time. When I give up on you
Because my life had to be included as well. After I die like that, I turn back time again
Turn it on and maybe I can get to you.