Cinnamon Candy - Episode 138
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Episode 138
After Mrs. Jin left, Kwon Hee-seong sat down at the owner’s bedside as always. Still, just in case, he grabbed her collar and sniffed her to check for the smell. I don’t know if my nose was broken, or if it really smelled like blood, but even though the clothes were new, there was no scent of fabric softener and only a fishy iron smell.
“My brother needs to open his eyes quickly.”
That way you can get rid of this smell.
In a way, the reason why I was covered in the smell of cigarettes and blood was also Han Seon-ju’s fault. Kwon Hee-seong sat on the bed and pouted his lips as if he was looking at me.
“It’s Seonju’s fault. I don’t want to do this either. Did I tell you? Actually, I don’t like hurting anyone. I don’t like hitting. “My knuckles hurt.”
There is no answer. There is only the sound of breathing. Kwon Hee-seong recited as if in a monologue.
“That’s why I cut it… … That’s not very pleasant either. I don’t feel refreshed either. “It’s just frustrating.”
I was tired of the smell of blood. When I encounter it, I can’t help but cut off my fingers or wherever, so I have no choice but to cut them off.
I wondered how Han Seon-ju would react if she saw herself like this. Will she be furious because I messed with her family, or will she just ignore it since her eldest brother said he has no time left? It would be nice to praise him, but I don’t think I’d say he did a good job given his affectionate personality.
Kwon Hee-seong leaned his back against the wall, then put his arms on the bed and bent his back. In front of his nose was Han Seon-ju’s face. His expression was the same as yesterday. She was like a princess who took poison and lay in a glass coffin, something like that.
Suddenly, I wanted to look at his eyes. She touched her eyelid with the tip of her finger. As I was trying to lift it, she took my hand away. I didn’t want to force myself to see it. I didn’t want to see blurry eyes. I hoped that he would see me with the light shining like a bead in the sunlight.
How long should I wait?
It was said that 1,000 days could be a long-term battle. He was telling me to brace myself. The premise that doctors, as a group, originally assumed the worst was the worst, but that wasn’t wrong. No one knew when Han Seon-ju would open her eyes. It could be right now, tomorrow, or it could take months, years, or even decades. Then, at some point, a day could come silently when my heart stopped beating.
The days of vague waiting seemed like eons away. I wonder if the day when Han Seon-joo opens her eyes will ever come, but her hopes are broken like a flower stalk that springs and falls.
Kwon Hee-seong took his gaze away from Seonju’s closed eyes and carefully rested his head on his chest. The sound of the heartbeat reaching his ears is constant. he is still alive He’s not dead, he’s next to me.
I turned my head, buried my face, and took a deep breath. But there is no smell. There wasn’t even a smell of cigarette smoke. That pushed her mind into the middle of the storm. It is precarious, as if there is less than one step left before the cliff. Kwon Hee-seong knew no other way than violence to calm the anxiety that was eating away at his heart.
“just… … .”
He spoke to Han Seon-ju, who was sleeping, as if in a whisper. She was tired and sleepy. She forgot the last time she slept properly. Have you eaten? I don’t remember that either.
“Shall we die together?”
Me, Han Seon-ju, and Byeol-i too. Then it seemed like everything would be comfortable. It was quite a daunting thought, so Kwon Hee-seong quietly wrapped his hands around Seonju’s neck. It had a long, thin and elegant neck. It’s lumpy and full of calluses and scars, so much so that it’s a shame to hold it.
“Is that so, Seonju hyung?”
My hands felt strong. Red blood rushed to the nape of Han Seon-ju’s neck. The color was pretty too. Her face also turned red. She was as strange as when she looked up from under me, crying with her eyes wet.
“… … .”
If I go on like this and open my eyes today.
Kwon Hee-seong looked down with a smile on his face, then took his hand off Seonju’s neck in shock. I looked at my two pale palms in turn, then looked at the owner’s neck and face. Fortunately, his complexion, which had turned bright red due to a rush of blood, regained its original color, but on the other hand, a reddish mark was left on his neck.
The finger that was placed under the owner’s nose trembled slightly. After repeatedly checking to see her breath passing by, Kwon Hee-seong buried her face in Seonju’s chest. Since his trembling hands were unable to grasp anywhere on the boat, he only held on to the blanket instead.
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The beast, which was thought to have had some fun before returning, surprisingly pursued its owner persistently. If I pretended to be angry and told him to go away, he would lick his front paw with his tongue or look the other way. He doesn’t want to take me to the river. Even though I pushed it away with my foot to tell it to go, the animal jumped up and came back.
Is there a string tied to it that I can’t see? Even if you look around, you can’t see it. I had no choice but to slow down my steps. It was inevitable since I played with animals.
And gradually, I started thinking more and more. Where on earth is this place and why do I have to cross the river? Even though I racked my brain, I couldn’t come up with an answer. My heart just feels tight.
“Do you know where this is?”
Even when I asked, the beast just tilted its head and rolled its golden eyes. It’s funny to ask a question to an animal that doesn’t understand the language. Seonju chuckled and resumed his stopped steps. Behind him, the animal was hanging out, holding the hem of his pants between its teeth. If the shipowner tried to move his seat, he always did. Then, when pushed by the owner’s power, it cried out loud and followed with its ears and tail hanging down.
The flowing river seems to have gotten a little closer. The owner set up an awning with his hand blade over the snow and looked at the river. If I just cross over there, all the uneasiness left in my heart will be erased.
It feels uncomfortable. Seonju wrinkled his eyebrows for a moment. Even when she was resting or walking, she continued to harass Seonju. Maybe it would be better if it just came to mind, but when he tried to remember, a cloud-like fog would inevitably roll in, and that damn feeling was hanging on his chest as if it were shackled.
There’s something I couldn’t say to someone.
I forgot about it, suddenly remembered it, forgot about it, and was caught up again. It seemed like very important information, but I couldn’t figure it out. So, Seonju sighed with every step.
“Let’s take a short break.”
I can’t walk to the river in this mood. I climbed up and sat down on a flat rock nearby, and of course the animal followed suit. Even though there was no sun, warm sunlight poured down on the animal’s black, curly fur. It sparkles like ripples illuminated by moonlight.
Without realizing it, my hand stretched out. I wanted to touch it. When the finger touched the animal, it purred and climbed onto the owner’s leg.
“It’s a star. I think I left something very important behind… … . “I don’t know what that is.”
The name Star is natural. There was no better name for the beast. As the ship owner wanted, he called the beast star. The beast seemed to like the name so much that it raised its head when you called it “star” while washing its face with its thick paws.
“What on earth was it?”
Byul’s fur was fluffy and soft. This also closely resembles something else. Seonju swept her hair upward as if she were pulling it up. She had pink skin. no. The skin I’ve seen has never been this color. A flat forehead, eyebrows stretched out freely like the grass that forms the meadow here, a high bridge of the nose… … .
“uh.”
The shipowner suddenly looked up at the sky. She seemed as if she had just woken up, but a drop of water landed on her forehead and her thoughts were scattered. It was rainwater. Even though the sky is still blue and without a single cloud.
Rainwater once again fell, rolling from Seonju’s forehead to his eyebrows, and from his eyebrows to his cheeks. When I ran my finger over it, the rainwater was warm. It seemed to be higher than body temperature.
Rainwater fell once again. This time it was above the lips. I groped over it. It was moist, as if someone’s lips had touched it. The rainwater was at a tear-like temperature.
Seonju lowered his head and looked at Byeol. Bright yellow eyes stared at the owner. If she looks closely she has a brown tint inside it. She was the color of candy.
Just like the color of cinnamon.
“I am… … .”
I know someone with eyes like that.
There was a person who had the scent of a forest. He knew someone who had curly hair like a star and smiled brightly like a boy. He had a secret that he could not reveal to him.
The regret was wider than the river and deeper than the depth of the water. The wind blew from the river as if telling him to come here, but the shipowner’s head turned to the other side. The green forest waved its lush leaves as if beckoning towards the ship owner.
Once it occurred to me, I couldn’t control it. I missed him so much. He wanted to see the scent of the forest soaking his body and the smile like sunlight in his eyes. I didn’t want rainwater flowing down like this.
“I have to go back.”
A light rain fell from the sky. She was soaked, but she was not cold. It was a warm rain. She seemed to be pushing the ship owner’s back, pouring out diagonally, telling him to come back to the forest quickly.
“With you.”
The owner held Byeol, who was busily moving between his legs, in his arms. Byeol cried for a long time, putting her ears back as if she was smiling broadly. It was like the loud sound of a boat horn announcing its return.
I wrapped Byeol in clothes to keep her from getting wet from the rain and came down from the rock. She took one look at the river, but then turned her head and walked briskly into the forest.
I will return with Byul. And I had to look at him and say it in my own voice.
We came. We came back to see you, our precious one.