Daon's Crossroads - Episode 148

Episode 148

“Just like you said that you only wanted my happiness, you have to say this again without a single lie.”

Probably, every time I remember the existence of a photo, I will take it out and look at it. Every time you look at the photos that record the moment of reunion, with Yu Da-on’s ugly face intact, you will feel sad as if you have returned to this moment, and you will also laugh a little.

“Forget all the false talk about it being for me, or that you only wanted my happiness, or that you had no choice but to do that, and tell me your truth.”

It would be infinitely more adorable.

“Don’t forget anything about what you’re feeling or thinking right now, and tell it to me exactly as it is.”

As soon as he was threatened to confess his true feelings without making a fuss and without saying anything, Da-on Yu’s transparent and clear eyes wavered aimlessly. He showed me all the ugly things that were there, the ugly things that weren’t there, and all the shameful things that would be ridiculed for a long time. Even though I thought it was a big deal to reveal even one of his inner thoughts, I thought that it was possible for Yu Da-on, who was as foolish as a body, so I put the cigarette case inside my jacket just in case. I took it out and held it in my hand.

If he didn’t tell me the truth, I planned to hit him on the temple like I did with a cigarette case to reset his memory and then ask him again. If he gave the same answer the second time, I would hit Judaon’s temple once again with the cigarette case in my hand without any hesitation, and my position would not change whether it was the third or fourth time. At first glance, I thought it was crazy, but it only took more strength to hold my hand.

“You only get this one chance. “If you lie to yourself and me here, I will never see you again.”

It doesn’t matter if he dies right here. After sending him away first, I can die along with him.

“Yudaon.”

Like it or not, if that bastard digs pumpkin seeds with his teeth again, we’ll all die here together.

“I, I, I… .”

I tried so hard to fix it, both last time and this time. When Yudaon was more nervous or embarrassed than necessary, he developed a habit of stuttering like in the past.

Of course, Yu Da-on’s determination to show a dignified appearance in front of me is something to admire, but honestly, it was a bit disappointing. Others may point out that he is immature, but I find Yu Da-on very cute.

“I am… … .”

There was a time when I missed him so much that it touched my heart to see him licking his moist lips and talking about various things with his poor speaking skills.

To my horror, there was a time when I had an auditory hallucination in which Daon Yu’s voice was vividly echoing in my ears inside the dormitory. At that time, I woke up as if trying to start a game and prayed to the empty wall over and over again for them to call my name one more time. Because I missed it so much.

“Well, it’s a long way… .”

Wow-

I tried to express it that way, but maybe my feelings haven’t been fully conveyed to you yet. While reminiscing about your past, you took advantage of a moment of daze, and you held my collar tightly with your hand and moistened your lower lip with your tongue as if you were about to attack me.

“Uh, so, I, I… .”

As if my chest was tight, I was tapping my chest with my other hand and struggling to speak. While waiting patiently for you, I stroked his cheek with my hand to show that he was doing well. The back of his hand was torn and torn from repeatedly hitting my face, and it wasn’t a big deal, but I wanted to pat him right away, so I didn’t have the energy to look into such small details.

“are you okay.”

The current Yudaon needed support.

“I’m here.”

No matter what you choose, I won’t disappear. If you just tell me honestly that you want to be together, we won’t break up and we can be together forever. So please, please, stay strong.

“I, I… … .”

Because you have never been honest with yourself, because you are always busy being considerate and observant of others, and because you are the one who always becomes detached because it is inevitable even if you are abandoned, it took practice to even say that we want each other.

“Giroya, I…” .”

But even that will be okay.

“… Gore… … .”

Since love is about keeping pace, there is no such thing as perfect love from the beginning, so even the process of us adjusting to each other must be love.

“Together, huh, together… … .”

Otherwise, why would I look forward so much to this situation, which has no nutritional value by my standards?

“I want to be with you… … .”

I had pictured ourselves confessing our sincere love to each other hundreds or thousands of times, but I had always overlooked the fact that reality far exceeded my expectations.

“I want to be with you, Giro. “I don’t want to break up, I want to stay together.”

Ever since I was young, from the moment I decided not to love like my father, I have wondered how I would confess and how I would receive it if I met a love that was destined to be in the future. But I can assure you, it was not a scene like this.

“I, too, want you to only look at me until you die. “Even if you tell me you hate me, I don’t want to let you go.”

The idea that a man of the same gender as me, with an incredibly handsome face, would be crying and clinging to the leg of my pants, and that he would be happy to look down at me, not anyone else, with a face like a gregarious brat who wants only me to look at him until he dies. Because I never really wanted it or expected it.

“I really don’t like having other people next to you. Since I only have you, I wish you had no one but me. “I hope it stays like that until I die.”

Yeah, but.

“love you.”

Why do I feel like I have gained or lost the world at the simple words of “I love you” from the other person under conditions I have never considered?

“I love you, Giro. “Don’t abandon me.”

As I see Yu Da-on saying that he loves me and begging me not to abandon him, I have a very strong premonition that even if he abandons me for the rest of my life, I will never be able to abandon him.

“Would you like to stay together?” Since you said you wouldn’t let me go first, me too. “I want to do that too.”

Is it really okay to be happy about this? I can’t help but pledge my whole life to one person, so from now on, even if he shows a little cuteness and stubbornness with this look on his face, I won’t even think about getting angry and will just lose to him every time.

I don’t really like losing to others. Additionally, not being able to understand the topic, being annoying, and repeating things that don’t make sense are all things I don’t like.

“Okay, then.”

But, if you ask anyone, they’re not going to give you the answer, right?

“Let’s stay together.”

Because perhaps only I know the answer.

“From now on, let’s not fall apart and stick together forever. Fuck it, no matter what anyone says, we can do that.”

As I knelt down and wiped the tears from the tips of his eyelashes while swearing harshly, the rain began to subside as if it were a lie. As I looked up at the sky in amazement at the incredible timing, a ray of light began to shine through the dark clouds that were covering the sky.

The ray of light that penetrated the gap soon began pouring in from other places as well, driving away the dark clouds and illuminating the wet earth as if it were their own world.

“Mom, look over there!”

The girl I saw inside the funeral home a little while ago was holding the hand of her mother, who was with her, and shaking it back and forth, happy that the rain had stopped.

The child’s mother stroked the child’s head with a loving hand and rejoiced, saying that the grandmother must have stopped the rain so that our kite would not have a hard time on the way.

“… “Judaon.”

As expected, I said that my grandmother was the best in the world and asked if he could come again next week, looking at the little boy who was already fussing at his mother and called Yu Da-on. Then, looking at the mother and daughter, they looked up at me with a knowing look in their eyes that they too must have been thinking the same thing. I don’t know for sure who influenced the sudden stop of rain, or if it was just a coincidence, but we both had grandmothers.

“Grandma, what kind of flowers do you like?”

A person who, even at the threshold of death, worried about the safety of me and my grandchildren until the very end, and perhaps even created a link between us so that we could meet each other until the end.

“Still, you came this far, but if you leave without even showing your face, you’ll be very disappointed, right? “They both look ridiculously messed up.”

I plan to postpone the joy of reunion just a little longer. Anyway, from now on we’ll be stuck together without ever being apart for a moment, so there’s no need to waste these moments for the two of us.

“Yes, I’m sure you will.”

There are a lot of things I have to say and want to say, including apologies and shame, but I will share them over the next countless hours. Even though it breaks my heart to think of you lying in a hospital bed, your grandchildren have already suffered and suffered for a very long time. I have no doubt that it would be better for me and for you who are watching us from above.

“Let’s go, before it’s too late.”

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