Depressing Illusion - Gloomy Illusion (Episode 225)

#226

Trembling as if he had been electrocuted, he chewed and swallowed the food in his mouth while gasping for breath. I dropped my glass and silverware and spilled what I couldn’t swallow, leaving the table dirty, but I worked hard to fill my stomach. It may be absurd to wonder if I have the presence of mind to eat in this situation, but I thought that if I were to deal with someone who seemed to have no intention of letting me sleep until dawn, or if I was going to win and eat, I should not lose the battle of physical strength. It’s shocking, but it looks like he’s planning to eat lunch and dinner with my semen. If you can beat someone who even ate dessert in the meantime, try it. I don’t plan on putting my brother to sleep either, so we’ll have to wait and see who will get tired first from the first night.

While I was trying to compose myself, I lowered my head when I heard and felt the blatant sound of my throat being passed under the table. When the hot mouth felt soft, I sucked it in hard and squeezed it tightly to stimulate it, so I felt like I would ejaculate again and again without getting tired of it. Her mouth must have been full, but she used her tongue through the narrow gap to scan and even rub the pillar. While she was speeding in a trance, the leg that was tied to her ankle was lifted and her knee bent of its own accord. When I looked under the shadowy table, almost lying down on the chair, I saw my brother, who was properly dressed, unlike me, who was naked, looking very disheveled.

He openly tempts me with an unkempt look and a lewd smile, but what power do I have not to accept that? When I happily spread my thighs, it crawls up as if it had been waiting, touches my stomach, and even tries to kiss my mouth. I unconsciously touched my frowning eyebrows and bit my brother’s lower lip as his hand covered my cheek. They won’t even listen to me telling them to wash up and then go on. I was grumbling internally, but my toes were curled as my fingers traced downwards.

No matter how many times I go in and out, the size is so different that it is difficult to get in and my stomach feels the same no matter how many times I go in. I struggled to breathe in and out properly. In an instant, my vision went up. I was surprised and quickly hugged the head in front of me, but when I realized that his older brother was just lifting me, I burst into laughter. The amount of exercise and food has increased, so it must have become heavier than before, but I can easily pick it up. Instead of admiring his body, he lifted his body and let out an unintentional nasal and embarrassed moan as his brother’s penis was being driven deeper by gravity.

This thing was so thick that my insides were wide open, but if I even moved it, the inner walls were all pushed and scratched with the force of irritating my internal organs, and my eyes flashed white. At that time, my entire body lost all strength and I was sobbing as if I was going to run out of breath, so there was no other way than to make claw marks on my broad back to just barely hold on to my spirit that was trying to fly.

As they pushed me to the corner of the room without any reason, I was completely overcome with emotions as I collapsed in pleasure and pleasure. Perhaps because I was feeling competitive over a situation in which I could hardly take control, my whole body became hot and I couldn’t even focus properly. Even my vision became blurry under the low lighting in the room, and suddenly my wet cheek caught my eye.

“… … “Are you crying?”

As I raised my trembling hand, I traced the dry eyelids that were quietly closing. Oh, I thought she was crying. Did I knock the glass off her table? The only thing that was strangely wet was my leg, and it seemed like it got wet because my brother was burying his head in my crotch.

At the same time my blurry vision came into focus, my brother raised his eyelids. The revealed eyes were deep and warm even though they weren’t calm, but they were somehow damp, which made my heart feel uncomfortable and my stomach tingle. I make my brother cry and be sad. Even though it hurt my heart, I was happy and wanted people to cry because they missed me.

“I’m not crying.”

“Iknow, right. “I’m not crying.”

“Why do you look regretful?”

“That can’t be right.”

It’s funny that I pretended not to notice and rolled my eyes. I looked at the smooth raised lips as if licking them, and the gentle movement of my waist made my whole body feel thrilled, so I threw my head back and shed tears as if I had been electrified. I was tired and wanted to rest a bit, but I also wanted to do more. I wanted them to covet and want me even more. Those persistent eyes, as if they could only see me, gave me a tingling sensation that made me feel addicted.

As my waist tightened, the moans that came out of my mouth became strange and disintegrated as if they were melting. She whimpered as if she was almost out of breath. She pressed her cheeks against each other as if she was short of breath and urgently scratched the back of her neck and the top of her wings as she hugged her as if she was struggling. With his other hand, he put his hand inside the shirt in front of her, which was almost naked, and grabbed her waist, cutting her. Even as her floor got wet with all kinds of bodily fluids and the night got deeper, I wanted to stay close to her and share her body heat endlessly.

Just as a person’s limitations are endless, when I realized that if I could do it, I could do it again, my relaxed body began to feel tired and sleepy. It was already so tight that nothing would come out, and my back looked like it was sprained, but I still inserted it and bit my lips to the point where they were numb and swollen.

They tickled each other, played around, played, washed up, and then did it again one more time and said that they were really going to kill each other. Then, I heard people say that I told them not to make jokes like that, but semen kept flowing out of the hole, so they had to take out everything inside first. Maybe it was a signal to do it again, but maybe I didn’t notice.

“no… … . It’s okay to take it out, uh, yes, uh… … . Ah, what are you doing… … .”

“why. “I thought you were asking me to do more because you were shaking your back.”

When did I… … . Abominably, when I chew on the shell of my ear and move my fingers, a loud gurgling sound of water comes out. It wouldn’t be strange if I fell asleep like this, but I couldn’t help but stand up again because they kept touching my sensitive area. Well, I think I can do it one last time, but I don’t think I can do it… … .

My eyes slowly closed as if I was wondering what kind of nonsense this was. I must have fallen asleep while rubbing my heavy eyes, and when I opened them again, the room was dark. Compared to just before, it was embarrassingly quiet. Are you sleeping too? I traced the shadows caught in my blurred vision and drew them with my eyes, putting my mind at ease. Even if I fall asleep before I know it, when I wake up, my brother is still there… … . I liked it so much that I wanted to keep doing it.

The feel of the blanket against my bare skin was unfamiliar, but it was soft and not wet underneath, so I guess they had sorted it all out for me, but it was quite comfortable. I wasn’t planning on doing it well. What time is it now? From the first day, I lost my sense of time and was afraid to check the time. Even if I wanted to, I couldn’t have done it. After eating well, my overly stressed body seemed to be startled, so I fell back into a light sleep and woke up again and again. Unable to overcome the stress, I fell asleep and woke up again. I felt strange for some reason, so when I opened my eyes, my heart skipped a beat at the sight of a large shadow standing tall. Wow, I thought it was a ghost… … .

“Hyung, well, you were surprised. “Why are you not sleeping, ugh?”

“… … .”

Suddenly a dry towel covered my face. Then, instead of avoiding brushing off someone who had fallen into the water without a word and wiping them out, he calmly and completely accepted them. It’s no surprise that sleepwalking symptoms have reappeared. I knew that no matter how much it was over and how happy I was now, it would never go back to the way it was in the first place. I just hope it doesn’t get any worse.

Plus, it wasn’t that annoying to deal with, so it was okay. Of course, if you force me to wake up in the middle of the night, I might get annoyed, but if I show signs of displeasure because my position has changed after several nights of saying I’m dying of pain every morning, is that really human? It seems he fell asleep again while taking the initiative and offering up his arms and legs and asking for a wipe here and there. I couldn’t help it. Aside from being sleepy, I felt good because his hands were gentle and thorough.

When my blurry vision came into focus and there was no one next to me, I got goosebumps and hurriedly stood up. Even though my heart was pounding so hard that I didn’t even know it was going to explode and I was clutching my chest for a moment, my mind and nerves were focused on finding Taeseongje. Why can’t I see it? Why not? There’s no way it doesn’t exist. Ah, there you are… … . I let out the breath I had been holding when I saw a familiar figure sitting in front of a table not far from the room.

Even though my head was upright and all the tension had gone, I massaged my trembling body rather than lying back down. Even then, he had to stop because his bruised arm was sore. What happened here that ended up like this? I went down to the bed after rubbing the teeth marks that looked like I could tell who they were just by looking at them. If it had been the same, her knees would have buckled, but this holds up again. After all, people had to exercise and develop physical strength. No matter how hard it is or how depressed you are, you need to eat well, sleep well, and be healthy so that you don’t feel unsatisfied at moments like this even if you go crazy all day long.

I woke up feeling much lighter, but I walked shakily with my back and pelvis throbbing as if I had been tanned. His older brother, who covered his face with one hand and lowered his head, did not move, perhaps because he was so deep in thought that he did not notice any signs of presence, or perhaps he was asleep. I leaned against the table and examined the situation. He seemed to have changed into new clothes, but not a single button was fastened properly and they were even crumpled. There was a luxurious liquor bottle and a glass filled with liquor on the table. There are no traces of drinking.

I picked up the glass, shook the appetizing colors, and set it back down. Did you give up trying to drink alone? As I was wondering, my brother’s cell phone with the screen turned on next to the glass of alcohol caught my eye. I didn’t know because it was quiet, but I guess I was listening to something that was playing. It was a downloaded file, and the title was a number that seemed meaningless. Out of curiosity, I put my ear to it and could faintly hear a sobbing sound.

-Home, ji, go home, each, go… … .

Just as I was wondering if I was hearing something strange, a slurred voice cried sadly. It was my voice. Wow, I didn’t know because he was screaming like a crazy person, but I knew because he was crying and repeating my sister’s name, that I didn’t know where to go, why I was here, and that I couldn’t remember anything.

This is it. My guess would be correct, as I could faintly hear the sound of the wind or the mountains. I didn’t write this down to tell you, but I did something stupid because I hurt my head. Still, no matter how much I don’t remember. I can’t believe I passed this on… … . I unintentionally hurt you again. This wasn’t my first recording.

Even though I was almost out of my mind at the time, I was afraid of my memory running out, so I muttered until the battery ran out. Even when I suddenly lost my mind, there were times when I couldn’t even feel the cold in the deep darkness, and there were times when I compulsively checked my back out of fear. My throat was sore and my mouth was dry. When I remember that time, I felt dizzy and felt like I was stepping on cold ground and the wind was touching my hair.

I remembered a time when I was in a cold sweat and moving without stopping. The moment when I covered my ears and buried my head between my knees and didn’t move, and the time when I was climbing a mountain like a mountain animal and trembled in fear because no matter how far I went, I couldn’t see the right path. It wasn’t something that could be joked about even once.

-Scared, muh, ooh, ooh… … .

Can a human make a sound like that? Was I that bad? Listening to someone talking about something meaningless to themselves like a crazy person really made me lose my taste for alcohol. But it also made me pull. I fumbled around on the table and found the glass I had put down. As she inhaled it all at once, her throat burned as if it had been on fire. Her lost spirit suddenly returned. She felt hot and feverish, as if she had swallowed fire, and shook her head.

“Big.”

It’s been a while since I drank it, so I get a kick out of it. Is this expensive? Without realizing it, I took a sip, put down my phone, and checked the label. Is it because the quality is good, or is it because I stopped drinking alcohol? … . However, it did not have that unique sweet taste. In the face of unrealistic pain, all alcohol was delicious and helped me rest peacefully.

As if possessed, my hand moved freely and filled the empty glass, but then the memory of being scolded fiercely and harshly struck the back of my hand, causing the precious drink to plummet. It looked like it would break into pieces, but fortunately it didn’t even crack. No, is this really fortunate? I got scared later and looked around to see if I was going to vomit, but nothing happened. It was as if time had stopped and nothing happened except for the bottle that was spitting out alcohol. He glanced at his brother, who was as motionless as a statue, and instead of doing the crazy thing of bending over, he rolled the bottle away with his heel. It’s an obvious move, so you’ll get caught eventually.

“I told you first that I would protect you.”

The dry voice that came out before the rolling sound stopped made me nervous. However, that submerged voice made my heart pierce with a hazy and painful sound, as if I was immersed in a nightmare.

“I did. I did it, but… … . I couldn’t do it. I didn’t do it again… … .”

The dying murmur was bitter with a sense of defeat, guilt, and helplessness. You look fine, so why are you so anxious again? I suspected bipolar disorder, but wasn’t sure. What should I do? He tried to think, but when he saw his brother trying to sink in the thick, murky swamp, his body moved first.

“brother. “Look at me.”

There seems to be no leisure anywhere in the eyes that raise their heads heavily.

“Come here.”

He spread his arms out and waved his fingertips telling me to come here quickly. Even if you can’t eliminate depression, it may be able to relieve it by half. I hugged my brother as gently and affectionately as I could, which I would have never imagined doing before. His large body was hard and heavy, but lovely. My brother placed his forehead near my neck and let out a breath as if it was difficult, then opened his mouth.

“It’s hard because I like you so much. Still, I like it. love you.”

“i know. me too.”

I suddenly became curious about what they were thinking when they came here this summer. Actually, I guess you don’t like the sea. Did he come simply because he liked me even though he was sick of it? After coming this far, I lost the desire to close the blinds until the vacation was over. It didn’t feel that great. I took a deep breath and whispered the answer I couldn’t give before hugging him in my brother’s ear.

“And, thank you and I’m happy. You protected me. “It was like that every time.”

“… … .”

It seems like he doesn’t like me, but even so, it doesn’t take away the fact that he always surrounded me with love and protected me. Isn’t that right? It didn’t matter whether the result was good or bad.

“I know that you are sad as much as you cherished me and in pain as much as you cherished me. A lot. But thinking more is my specialty. “I’ve already done enough, so he thinks about things like what to do with me today or what to eat.”

People are like the ocean, rolling in like waves, so what can I do if they try to pull me into the deep sea? Taeseongje had to come to his senses if he had the influence to be swept away and embroiled in all sorts of emotions based on eye movements, hand gestures, and the slightest actions and moods. Well, it doesn’t matter if it’s like this, but if you want to lead me in a desired direction or have something you want, you have to do it in moderation. If you are the person who will be the owner of the rest of my time, you should be like that.

“You knew, right?”

“okay. “You’re right.”

“great.”

Satisfied, you ask why it’s so easy, as if you can’t win. This problem can be viewed simply. Even though we hold hands, rub our lips, and talk about trivial things, three or four hours pass by quickly and we get interrupted, right? Time passed so quickly that even the smallest things, nothing grand, meant there was no need to go far. Right now, all I had to do was think about today today and tomorrow tomorrow.

If I, who has a lot of thoughts, picture far ahead, even if death separates us again, in the next life, once again from my heart, even if it takes away my memories. Even if I were to eliminate existence in my heart forever, I would not be able to eliminate love. The warm embrace I was in at some point made me lean into it. The lonely, unfamiliar nights that I thought would never stop are no more. Only love remains.

<Complete the gloomy illusion.>