Fixing The Cowshed After Losing The Cow - c124

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I wondered if there was anyone inside, but I heard a small rustling sound beyond the door. As a result, Sowon realized that his voice was reaching Taewo and opened his mouth again.

“The doctor said that the reason I collapsed was because I was startled by a sudden strong wave. After being in the hospital for 3 days, I went straight to Taewoo… I think it was because my body was weakened. Oh, it’ll be okay now!”

Sowon’s chattering voice gradually quieted down. It felt like she was making excuses no matter what she said. No, she didn’t even know if this was an excuse. Instead of a hard door, she tries to fulfill her own wish of having a conversation with Tae-woo directly, face-to-face.

“Even if I go in… can?”

Sowon stood still. As soon as I came to my senses and came to see Tae-Woo, I collapsed in front of him, and because of that, I had put Tae-Woo in a hard time, so I couldn’t bear to see his face again without his permission. Sowon waited and waited for Taewoo to hear an answer.

As my legs started to hurt, I heard a quiet voice through the crack in the door.

“Please come in.”

Finally, Taewoo’s permission was given.

Sowon did not enter the room right away, but took a deep breath, then gently opened the door and stepped through the narrow gap. Unlike the broken car and doorknob, the inside of the room was fine. However, as if he was not in a state of deterioration, he had all three guiding machines surrounding the bed connected to his body.

It had been a long time since he had seen the figure he was afraid of, with black lines hanging from his body, so Sowon automatically stiffened. It wasn’t scary, but I felt my nervous body shaking.

Taewoo’s eyes stared at Sowon. Sowon, who was gradually shrinking, realized that this was the same as it had been for the past eight years, and instead of avoiding his gaze, she faced him. Then Taewoo turned his gaze first. Only then did Sowon realize that I had kept my mouth shut the whole time with a pale complexion, and opened my mouth in haste.

“Guiding, I’d like to do it for you.”

“… … .”

“I asked the doctor, and he said it would be okay to just take it step by step. therefore… “I won’t collapse like last time.”

When Sowon said she wanted to guide, Taewoo, who had been staring at the wall in silence, turned his head and stared at Sowon. His black eyes, quietly looking at Sowon, seemed to pierce Sowon’s heart.

“Can I guide you…” ?”

Sowon asked, clutching his clothes tightly with both hands. Taewoo looked at Sowon for a moment and then turned his head away without answering.

The tension in my body suddenly relaxed. The disappointment of his wish was even greater because he was secretly hoping that he would grant it. But I didn’t know that Taewoo’s reaction was natural. Sowon has been looking at him like a monster for the past 8 years, and he has been struggling every time, saying he doesn’t want to guide with him. It would be incredible to believe that only after his heart stopped once did he come to his senses and pick up the guide who came to visit him.

Sowon decided to show through his own actions that he had changed. Sowon slowly approached Taewoo’s side. He squeezed between the guiding machines and knelt down next to his bed. And he carefully held Taewoo’s still hand.

“Tsk… .”

Sowon’s body trembled. The pain was so painful that I almost screamed, but I gritted my teeth and held it in. Now I think I know why I fainted. It felt like countless knives were entering my body through my blood vessels.

I forgot. Guiding with Taewoo was painful. But he couldn’t even imagine how hard it must be for Tae-woo, even though he was in so much pain that he could barely hold his hand.

Sowon slowly raised his head and looked up at Taewoo. I must have been looking at Sowon the whole time, so my eyes immediately met Taewo’s. Taewo’s body, consumed by blood, was completely black, and Sowon felt as if a huge shadow was looking down at him.

Even though we just made eye contact, it felt like all my thoughts and emotions were being read. Nevertheless, Tae-Woo only gave Sowon a grave look and did not blame or resent Sowon. Just like the day he died, when he was lying on the operating room bed.

Sowon asked with trembling lips.

“why… “Is that what you said?”

And he spoke as if pleading.

“I didn’t even guide Taewoo properly, so why…?” .”

Sowon lowered his head. Even after seeing Sowon shedding tears, Taewoo did not open his mouth. For a long time, only Sowon’s sobbing echoed in the quiet room.

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Sowon’s body suddenly tilted and his eyes widened.

It seemed like he was tired from crying and dozed off for a moment. When she came to her senses and raised her head, the sun had already set and her eyes were dark. Seeing the blinking light of the guiding machine and feeling the sharp waves through my hand, it seemed right that I was still holding Taewoo’s hand.

My legs were numb from kneeling for a long time. Sowon quietly got up out of fear that Taewoo was sleeping. Then his foot got caught in his guiding machine and he stumbled hard.

“Wow… .”

Patter.

As soon as Sowon corrected his posture, he felt the guiding machine attached to Taewoo’s body fall down. Sowon was shocked and froze.

Unable to see in front of her, unable to move because her legs were numb, and not knowing whether Tae-woo was awake or sleeping, So-won ran into a difficult situation. As Sowon fidgeted and didn’t know what to do, Taewo’s voice was heard from the darkness.

“it’s okay.”

“sorry. It’s so dark in front… .”

“I’ll turn on the light, so stay still.”

Tae-Woo stood up. The sound of blankets being brushed and the machines still attached to Taewoo falling to the floor were heard one after another. Soon, a bright light turned on with a clicking sound.

Unable to adjust to the suddenly bright surroundings, Sowon closed his eyes slightly and blinked slowly. Then Taewoo appeared. Taewoo’s entire body was consumed by blood.

Sowon, surprised to see the condition so severe, stopped breathing for a moment.

“Enough with the guiding now. “I’ll vacate the house for you, so you can rest comfortably.”

Taewoo bowed his head and briefly expressed his gratitude before passing by Sowon. Sowon stood there blankly, but suddenly came to his senses. If things continued like this, Taewoo would have to leave the house. Then I couldn’t tell when the next meeting would be. In that state, Taewo could have gone to the gate again.

“no! Do not go!”

Without realizing it, Sowon grabbed Taewoo’s hand. However, as soon as his hand, which was like a hard stone, touched him, a complex tangle of waves flowed in, making him startled and letting go of his hand.

Sowon was embarrassed and raised his head, making eye contact with Taewu, who was looking at him. Sowon timidly looked at him and said.

“I’m in really bad shape. Get some more guidance… .”

As he spoke, his voice gradually became quieter. Knowing that his condition had worsened because he had not provided guidance, Sowon could not help but feel even more intimidated.

Taew looked down at Sowon for a moment and then answered.

“All right.”

Sowon’s eyes widened as he received an unexpected approval. Surprise soon turned into joy. At first glance, Tae-Woo’s condition was so serious that he needed guidance, so So-Won tried to hold Tae-Woo’s hand, saying that it would be better to start guiding him right away.

“I didn’t mean to make you feel guilty.”

However, Sowon stopped at Taewoo’s next words. Seeing that wish, Tae-woo continued.

“You were unhappy because of me, so I wanted you to live happily now.”

“ah… .”

Only then did Sowon realize what Taewoo meant and lowered his eyes. It seemed to be an answer to Sowon’s question as he blamed himself.

“but… “I don’t deserve that.”

After Tae-woo died, So-won was very distressed. He couldn’t help but feel guilty because he knew he was a big part of his death. So, as he was running away, he may have been dreaming of returning to the past eight years ago.

“Because I was stupid, I made Taewoo suffer. Are you calling Taewoo a monster? . sorry… .”

Sowon’s expression gradually darkened. Compared to what he had done so far, saying he was sorry was so shabby and insignificant that it could not even be considered an apology.

“I don’t think I can be forgiven for what I did to Taewoo. “It’s too late, but I want to guide you from now on.”

“I don’t think Guide Lee So-won is at fault. So you don’t have to ask for forgiveness.”

However, contrary to Sowon’s concerns, the answer he received was simple.

Sowon smiled as if she was crying. I don’t know if it was to comfort himself, but Tae-woo denied it even though it was clear that So-won was wrong. Sowon deliberately smiled brighter and opened his mouth to hide his reddening eyes.

“I’ll change my clothes and come back to guide you again! “You can’t go anywhere without me!”

Sowon quickly escaped from Taewoo’s room.

Even after changing clothes, Tae-Woo was still in the room. She didn’t push back on his desire to guide again, and even gave him permission to sleep with her. Because my body was weak, the best I could do was just hold hands, but Sowon was still good. It was so good that I wished time would stop like this.

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