I Became A Terminally ill Villain - I became a terminally ill villain (Episode 136)
Episode 136
“… Are you feeling refreshed?”
“No way.”
She wheezed and raised her hand once again. But this time she didn’t lower her hand. After standing there for a while, she took a deep breath and slowly lowered her hand.
“I don’t want to get involved. Now take care of it. “I don’t want to have anything to do with you or that kid anymore.”
Did you say that you will stop breathing within a few days? I was planning to immediately find the longest flight and go somewhere. So that they can stay at the funeral for as short a time as possible. She said, glaring at her Jaeyoung.
“I should have quit a long time ago.”
If I had known it would turn out like this, I wouldn’t have stayed in a marriage I didn’t like. She said as she took another deep breath.
“Family, I don’t know what’s so great about that, but if you want that position so badly, you can take it. I just want to ask you one thing. “I’m so embarrassed that I can’t hold my head up, so I’m the only one who’s dead.”
“… … .”
“No, if you really want to tell me, you can do it after a few months have passed. Because I’m sick of this country now. “Just until it doesn’t matter what you say or don’t say, then it’s up to you.”
After quickly finishing what she had to say, she slapped Jaeyoung on the shoulder and followed the path her husband had taken. They completely cut off the bond with Seunghyeon, and only the cold air remained on the road they passed.
It was a relationship that would soon end if left alone, but just imagining the two of them sitting at Seunghyeon’s funeral pretending to be sad as if they were family made me feel repulsed.
‘… It would be nice if I could be part of his family.’
Maybe I should have tried to force it. She was frustrated that there was nothing she could do as she was not part of the family. Jaeyoung let out a long sigh.
“… Are you sure you don’t mind?”
Professor Kim asked in a worried voice. No matter how much Taehyeop was retired from management, he was still a very influential person in the business world.
He wasn’t the type of person who would stay hunched over forever. There would be no benefit in turning him into an enemy. Jaeyoung answered Professor Kim’s question by shrugging her shoulders.
“well. I might regret this situation someday… “If I hadn’t said that, I would have definitely regretted it.”
If I had sent it without saying anything, I would have definitely regretted it. I don’t know what will happen in the future, but for now, I feel like I did a good job.
“… “I don’t know either.”
Professor Kim sighed briefly and said. However, he also felt that it was refreshing on the inside. He may be at a disadvantage to himself, but the best he can do is to be kicked out to a branch hospital.
‘It was amazing to deal with VIPs at first. It was a car that I thought was not suitable for me… .’
“Your pheromone levels are completely low.”
With that in mind, Professor Kim turned his attention to the hospital room and discovered something. The pheromone level, which had been falling endlessly, had finally reached 0.
“You can go in now.”
We looked closely at the cases of patients who suffered from oxidative fever for several days. In most cases, after the pheromone level drops to zero, body functions slowly cease one by one, leading to death.
It only feels unfamiliar because it is rare, but to human beings, pheromones are also a kind of biological reaction, so naturally the first thing to show a noticeable change would be the pheromone glands.
Still, the first thing to stop was pheromones, so I was glad that it was time to say goodbye like this. Professor Kim returned after saying a few words to the medical staff and spoke to Jaeyoung.
“It will be two to three days at most. Now that the period is clearly set, I might feel more at ease.”
Since he had been going to and from the hospital worrying about what would happen, I felt fortunate that he could tell me clearly.
“I’ll just go down now.”
If Seung-hyeon completely stopped breathing and funeral proceedings began, Jae-young, who had no existence on paper, would have been able to do anything more.
It would have been better if Seung-hyeon had no family, but Seung-hyeon’s funeral, which has many relatives who have no love for him but need to take care of his public image, will certainly be a dreary event but will be attended by many people.
‘It would have been nice if the two of them had been able to spend a little longer together.’
Professor Kim turned around and thought. I thought about comforting Jaeyoung a little, but I couldn’t think of anything that would comfort him. In the end, he thought it was pointless and left the hospital room without looking back.
“… … .”
Now, in a few days at most, or a few hours at the shortest, everything will really be over. Somehow, my mind seemed to calm down. Jaeyoung stood alone in the hallway for a while and slowly walked towards the door.
The door opened with ridiculous ease, and Jaeyoung entered the hospital room without anyone stopping him and slowly approached Seunghyeon.
Should I say I am fortunate? His complexion looked better now that he was receiving nutrients through injections, compared to before when he couldn’t eat well due to lack of appetite. So I couldn’t believe it even more.
I thought he would stand up like this and ask Cheongseung why he was doing this. Jaeyoung looked down at Seunghyeon for a while and smiled.
‘Even though I know it can’t be like that.’
A face as peaceful as if it were asleep. Every time I looked at that face, I thought that I would wake up at any moment, but the conclusion was this. Seunghyeon will cross the path of no return, and he will be left alone.
Everyone said it was a stupid thing to do and that it was a good thing that they were the same alphas anyway, but Jaeyoung didn’t think he would forget this moment for a long time.
It would have been better if the given time had been longer, but Jaeyoung slowly raised his hand. His hand, which reached for Seunghyeon’s cheek, wandered over it and eventually returned to its original place without settling down.
“I said I was sorry for not regretting meeting me.”
I know I can’t hear you, but Jaeyoung slowly opens his mouth. Even if these words couldn’t reach Seunghyeon, there was something I had to say.
“It’s the same for me, so you don’t have to be sorry.”
I regret saying the words that hurt Seunghyun and saying the following without knowing what was happening, but I did not regret meeting Seunghyun.
If I could turn back time, I would do everything I can in the given time. No matter how much I do, it will never end, but at least I will pour everything into it within that time.
“I’m sorry for getting angry. in fact… I wasn’t angry at Seunghyun Han, I was angry at me. I also went to those fireworks, no. “I loved seeing Seunghyun Han watching the fireworks, so I couldn’t think about anything else.”
It would have been nice if the last words Seunghyun heard were these words. Jaeyoung continued speaking slowly.
“I was angry at myself for not paying attention until I caught a cold, but when I admit it, it feels like it’s all my fault, so… .”
Even thinking about it again, it was a stupid thing to do. Jaeyoung bit his lip, unable to finish his sentence.
“I’m sorry. And I’m sorry for saying this so late. There was a lot I wanted to say… “This is all I can think of right now.”
There were definitely a lot of good moments, but I was upset that the only thing that came to mind right now was myself at the moment when I said the hateful words. Jaeyoung, who was unable to continue speaking for a long time, spoke again.
“And, for telling me you like me… Thank you. “Mr. Han Seung-hyun gave me courage like that, but I said something like that like a fool.”
How much thought did you have to worry about before saying that? Jaeyoung washed his face while thinking about Seunghyeon, who must have been worrying alone. Even when she was young, she didn’t tend to cry, but these days, it seemed like she was shedding as many tears as she could in her entire life.
“… … .”
I felt sorry for the child, but I was glad that Seunghyun didn’t know of the child’s existence. Even though she knew Seunghyun couldn’t hear, Jaeyoung knew she would never talk about the child.
I would carry the guilt alone, so I hoped that Seunghyeon, who must have been worried the whole time, would feel at least a little more comfortable.
“… I’ll be fine. Because we were happy during the time we spent together. Thank you for making these memories, and that’s enough… “Don’t feel sorry or anything like that.”
I regretted talking about tomorrow and the future without knowing anything while I was with him. But I realized why Seunghyeon couldn’t say anything.
I guess it was because I didn’t want to make them worry or make them feel unnecessarily guilty. And it was the same for Jaeyoung now.
In my heart, I wanted to cling to it, not wanting it to end like this. However, those words were not said even jokingly in front of Seunghyeon, who was deep in sleep.
“good night. Don’t dream of me, just… “I think it just needs to be a happy dream.”
Jaeyoung sincerely hoped and gently placed his hand on top of Seunghyeon’s hand. The warm hands were so soft that I didn’t want to let go.
Because all his nerves were gone from his hands, Jaeyoung paused for a long time without noticing the number of machines starting to move next to him.