I Became A Terminally ill Villain - I became a terminally ill villain (Episode 138)
Episode 138
In the quiet room, only the sound of the humidifier running tickled my ears. Even as Seunghyeon heard the sound, he did not feel that he was alive.
I felt like my ears were a little deaf, but I didn’t feel any discomfort because I was used to doing nothing and letting my body rest.
The first time Seunghyeon thought something was strange was when a car horn honked loudly outside. Because the window was closed, it wasn’t loud, but it was enough to get on the nerves of Seunghyeon, who was already monotonous.
“… … .”
Are there cars in the afterlife? That’s kind of boring. I thought it was strange and felt frustrated that my hand was twitching without realizing it.
Seunghyun slowly opened his eyes. Instead of a pure white space, the slightly familiar ceiling of the hospital room caught my eye.
‘Am I not dead?’
Is this a miracle or an illusion? If it were a fantasy, he wondered if the world was too cruel to him.
But the warmth of the hand holding mine was too warm to be a dream. When I looked down and checked the identity of the warmth, I saw a familiar hand.
It was a face that could be said to be a fantasy. As if it was uncomfortable to fall asleep while sitting, I liked the warmth of Seunghyun holding my hand, so I held his hand without realizing it.
“… … !”
Jaeyoung’s shoulder flinched at that small movement. Perhaps it was an illusion, but Jaeyoung slowly opened his eyes and raised his head. The moment his eyes met Seunghyeon’s, he froze.
“… … .”
There was definitely a lot I wanted to say, but I was talking to Seunghyeon, who was sleeping, to the point where it was annoying, and when our eyes met, my mind went blank.
Is it a dream or an illusion? The hand that held Seunghyeon’s hand was filled with strength.
“ah.”
“… … !”
As soon as Seunghyeon moaned in pain, Jaeyoung let go of his hand in surprise and took his hand back. live. It is looking at itself and reacting to its own movements.
“… “It’s probably not a dream.”
Jaeyoung asked Seunghyeon. He wanted to hear the answer directly from him. I wanted to hear the answer in his voice that he was definitely alive.
“… “Cough.”
Seunghyun was trying to answer, but his voice was blocked due to his tight throat, and he coughed dryly. My throat, which had not been used for a long time, was completely dry.
Jaeyoung hesitated a little and found water on the table and poured it. He raised the glass to his mouth like he would a child, and focused on watching Seunghyeon swallow the water, wondering if his hand might not have enough strength.
“ha… … .”
Seunghyeon cleared his throat and let out a long sigh. How much time has passed? Jaeyoung’s clothes had definitely become lighter.
But there was something more important than that. Seunghyeon looked at Jaeyoung’s face for a moment and extended his hand to him, who looked nervous even when he was breathing.
“… … !”
Surprised, Jaeyoung froze, unable to hug Seunghyeon. The body in my arms was clearly warm.
“I thought it was a very bad joke if it was a fantasy.”
The moment I saw Jaeyoung’s face, I felt happy as if I had never thought of such a thing. What if she was a fantasy, what if she was a dream? I’m so happy just to see this face again.
“I don’t think that’s true either. just… . If it’s a dream, a little longer… .”
Before Seunghyeon finished speaking, Jaeyoung hugged him. It finally felt real now.
When I heard that there was a high possibility that Seunghyeon would wake up, I was surprised, but I was dazed for a moment and reacted calmly, but it seemed like all the emotions I had put off back then were coming rushing back.
Jaeyoung, who was much bigger than Seunghyeon, was hugged by him. I felt the shoulder where Jaeyoung buried his head becoming damp.
‘This person probably missed me as much as I missed him.’
“I was scared it would be the last time.”
While patting Jaeyoung on the back, Seunghyeon stopped when he heard a mumbling voice. What was the last one like? The answer came back before my mind could find the answer.
“I wasn’t angry at Seunghyun Han. “I hated myself for not taking better care of her even though I knew she was sick.”
“… … .”
“I really enjoyed that day. Everything we saw together was beautiful. So much so that I want to see it again anytime.”
Jaeyoung poured out words, forgetting to breathe. I was glad that moment wasn’t the last time for the two of them. It felt like a dream to be able to tell her that she didn’t mean it.
“… “Now I know why I insisted on leaving.”
Seunghyun asked in a calm voice. Jaeyoung nodded without taking his head from Seunghyeon’s arms.
“How can you not know that?”
It was a fact I knew so well that I regret not having known it sooner. In response, Seunghyeon patted Jaeyoung on the back again and said,
“Of course I know. “Why did you say that and how much did it bother you?”
That really bothered me. Seunghyeon pulled Jaeyoung’s face away from him, who was almost clinging to him, and made eye contact with him, holding his face with both hands.
“Just as Joo Jae-young knows why I did that, I also know everything… . So stop feeling sorry now.”
Right now I just wanted to see your face. Her red eyes trembled and tears began to pour out again.
“Right now, I just want to see your face. “Have you not seen me for a long time?”
I didn’t know exactly how much time had passed. However, judging by the lighter clothes and the disappearance of the flowers that were visible before falling asleep in the scenery outside the window, it must not have been a very short period of time.
So for now, I just wanted to look at each other’s faces without thinking about anything. Jaeyoung nodded at his words and made eye contact with Seunghyeon.
I hope I never lose sight of this again. As Jaeyoung thought so, she captured Seunghyeon in her blurred vision.
***
“… You don’t sound very surprised. “You don’t even doubt it.”
“Maybe it’s because there were so many surprises, but I can’t even think about it anymore.”
After staying like that for a while and getting scolded by a nurse who was making regular rounds, saying that he should talk to the patient right away when he wakes up, Seunghyeon underwent several tests again.
Fortunately, most cases were problems that could be resolved with simple medication and time. However, Professor Kim, who said that it would be better to stay in the hospital for about a week and see how it progresses, had a difficult time bringing up the story.
‘Can you accept this easily? He has lived his entire life as an alpha.’
However, Seunghyeon accepted the situation so easily that his worries were in vain. Perhaps because all the things that have happened so far have been surprising, this one felt rather logical.
‘and… .’
There were stories that Professor Kim couldn’t believe. Seunghyeon was able to understand the situation without much shock because he vaguely guessed the identity of the child who had melted into him.
‘kid… .’
It was something I had never even thought about in my life, but maybe it was because I remembered that small lump, but rather than fear, the thought of wanting to see my child healthy took precedence.
“The child is much smaller than expected. “Alpha’s pregnancy itself may be subject to many variables, or it may be that she was using up all her energy to protect herself.”
I heard various information, such as that the thing surrounding the child is literally just a one-time thing, so there is little chance of having a child again, and that the child will be an omega, but it is still unknown whether the omega pheromone will remain in Seunghyeon’s body even after the child is born. It was only after a long time that Seunghyun was able to come out of Professor Kim’s treatment room.
“… “You don’t like it, do you?”
Jaeyoung, who was waiting in front, asked Seunghyeon as he took him to the hospital room. I think Jaeyoung is lucky, but Seunghyeon may not be.
If so, what should I do? Jaeyoung asked, feeling a little confused. Before Seunghyeon woke up, I could only pray for him to wake up, but now there was a lot to think about.
Things that are more realistic and less ideal. Jaeyoung took a small, deep breath. What should she do if Seunghyun doesn’t like the child? If I didn’t have a child, my physical condition would become more dangerous, so I should have one, but how I thought about it was another matter.
It was something he had never thought about in his life, so it wouldn’t be surprising if he felt embarrassed or disliked it, but to Jaeyoung, the child was the only thing that proved the relationship between the two of them.
It certainly wouldn’t be a good feeling if that existence was denied by the person most precious to you.
‘But Han Seung-hyun’s doctor is the most important. You can’t force someone to think positively. No matter what reaction you get, don’t show that you’re upset.’
While I was thinking about various things in my head, Seunghyeon tapped Jaeyoung, who had a serious expression on his face. I could see so clearly what he was thinking that it almost made me feel sorry for him.
‘It’s normal to think that way, but… .’
“I’m fine. no… “I can’t wait to meet you.”
Jaeyoung’s hand pulling the wheelchair stopped at the unexpected answer. It looked like he was wondering if he had heard what he wanted to hear.
“It would be nice to be like Joo Jae-young. “Then it would be very cute.”
As he casually added a word, Jaeyoung’s face turned red. I didn’t know if it was joy or surprise, but one thing was certain.
I will no longer have unnecessary thoughts about Seunghyun hating my child. Seunghyun smiled slightly and tapped the hand holding the wheelchair as if telling him to move again.