I Became the Lousy Side Top - Episode 99

I got caught. Hyunjin was suspicious of Jaewoo, and it was revealed in his title. I couldn’t help but laugh at the title “brother,” a name I hadn’t heard since coming back to this world. But that was only for a moment.

‘I have to decide.’

Whether to affirm or deny identity. Either way is difficult.

“Are you really my brother?”

It was difficult to express the expression on Hyunjin’s face when he asked that. I felt the same way: sad, angry, and happy.

Even though he didn’t answer, it seems like Hyunjin has already come to a conclusion. Jaewoo looked at that and took a step back. Hesitation turned into action. Then Hyunjin came as close as he retreated. Then I grabbed his wrist. He held on tightly, and it seemed like he had no intention of letting go.

Jaewoo took a deep breath.

“that’s right.”

said. I said it. It’s too late to turn back now.

“Then can I ask you a few questions?”

What he was asking about was a story between the two of us that we would never know if it weren’t for Jaewoo’s past. 

“Do you remember the day we drank beer together?”

“I remember.”

Things like drinking beer and getting drunk, talking about trivial things while getting to know each other. They accumulated to form the past and prove their existence.

“You really are my brother.”

Hyunjin pulled Jaewoo and hugged him tightly. Even though he was wearing thick winter clothes, I could tell his heart was beating. After a while, a question arose.

“why?”

Hyunjin asked in a voice filled with emotion. What was contained within it was resentment.

“Why didn’t you tell me?”

There were countless opportunities to speak. However, Jae-woo did not tell him that he was Seo Jae-woo from the past. It was all because of greed and fear. Half of him wants to be loved in his original body, and half of him wonders what would happen if his body changes and the same feelings don’t arise. In any case, some of it was due to Jaewoo’s selfishness. So there was only one thing I could say.

“Sorry.”

“Don’t apologize. “Tell me why!”

Hyunjin’s voice rose.

“How hard was it for me this past year?”

The body I was hugging began to tremble slightly. I slowly pulled her body back and saw that Hyunjin was crying. A large teardrop rolled down her cheek and dripped under her chin. Seeing her cry felt like my heart was breaking.

“don’t cry. It’s my fault.”

“I don’t cry.”

Hyunjin cried silently. That was even more pathetic and her heart burned. She felt like a sinner who had committed a great sin. What was his body like? It made Hyunjin cry.

Jaewoo fidgeted and placed his hand on Hyunjin’s back. This body was a little bigger than the previous one, so it was easier to move. I patted her back slowly, but the tears didn’t seem to stop at all.

“I’ll tell you. “I’ll tell you all.”

In the end, it was Jaewoo who lost.

“Tell me everything.”

“Let’s go home first. “It’s too long to stand here and talk.”

At Jae-woo’s words, Hyunjin moved forward even though he was crying. When they arrived home, the two went to Jaewoo’s room. Although it was cold, it was quite warm sitting on the electric blanket. In that state, Jaewoo continued to comfort Hyunjin, who was still shedding tears.

“Actually, I don’t live here.”

“sure?”

“He’s from another world.”

“That’s why I asked you earlier if you believed in other worlds?”

“okay.”

Jaewoo answered with a bitter expression. It seemed that Hyunjin had now decided to believe anything Jaewoo said. During his long story, he never once retorted.

“Can you believe this?”

“believe. No, I don’t know if I actually want to believe it. A year after losing his brother.”

Hyunjin paused for a moment as if his throat was tight, then continued.

“Even if I lived, it wasn’t like living.”

“… … “But I still have to live.”

“is it so. I had to survive because I had younger siblings. But brother, actually my greed was different.”

“greed?”

Under the fluorescent lights, my tear-soaked cheeks were shiny.

“I wanted to follow my brother.”

“Hyunjin!”

“I wanted to be together even though I knew I couldn’t do it. Don’t worry. “But I didn’t put it into practice myself.”

Because I love my younger siblings too. After saying those words, Hyunjin closed her mouth.

‘What have I done?’

Jaewoo gritted his teeth. In the past and even now, he has only done things he would not want to do to Hyunjin. He only caused suffering in the name of doing it for him. Can I be with Hyunjin like this? He felt terrible about himself.

“It’s all, everything, my fault.”

Hyunjin responded to the painful words.

“that’s right. “It’s all my fault.”

It was an answer uncharacteristic of Hyunjin, who was always nice. Then his strong hand reached out and held Jaewoo’s hand tightly. And he began to slowly bow. He intertwined his fingers and spoke in a stern voice as if he would never let go.

“So from now on, you will be by my side forever. Even that is not enough to repay all the mistakes I have made. “You will, right?”

Jaewoo looked at their intertwined fingers and slowly nodded.

“I will.”

Only after promising several times did Hyunjin loosen his grip. But I didn’t let go of his hand. I touched my hands, which were different from before, as if I was trying to relearn them.

I put my palms together, touched my fingers, and rubbed my nails. Then, at some point, his hand began to creep up along my wrist. Rather than trying to make a sex appeal, it seemed more like an act of confirmation that she was here, but given the situation she was in, she felt strange. She was only a hand, but the tips of her ears were hot.

“Shouldn’t we prepare a meal soon?”

Hyunjin stopped moving as he looked at me and said this. Taking advantage of that opportunity, she quietly took her hand out and wiped Hyunjin’s cheek. It would be nice to have at least a handkerchief.

“Do you want to eat something?”

“I like anything my brother does.”

“Where is that word?”

“Really.”

Hyunjin responded, wiping his cheek and grabbing the hand that was about to go back. And then it started to wriggle again. The behavior continued even as he went to the kitchen to prepare a meal. He let go, perhaps because he couldn’t hold hands while cooking, which required using both hands, but instead he hugged him from behind.

Even in that situation, when we prepared and served the meal, the children approached us. But my brother acted differently than usual, so it seemed a bit awkward. The whole time he was eating, he glanced at Hyunjin and Jaewoo. Then, Woohee, who is the honest type, was the first to open his mouth, poking his brother’s side.

“Brother, what’s wrong?”

“what?”

“It wasn’t like that originally.”

Hyunjin immediately understood what Woohee was saying.

“It did.”

“Then what’s wrong?”

“We decided to become friends now.”

We decided not to reveal Jaewoo’s identity to the children for now. It was because there was still something to catch up on. Choi Moo-jin, because there was still work to be done with him.

“Well, it would be nice to become friends.”

Woohee answered in a lukewarm manner and ate again. However, Jae-woo felt that Woo-hee’s attitude changed after that day. Before that, Woohee, who used to run excitedly when given food, started to keep her distance. Moreover, Hyunwoo seemed to sense something and acted more politely. Just like when we first met.

“How is that?”

Woohee said, pouting her lips.

“My brother had an uncle.”

Although the children did not know exactly the relationship between Hyunjin and Jaewoo, they had a vague feeling about it. So, naturally, he assumed that his brother would be by his side, but he died. Because the children also liked Jaewoo, he cried a lot and had a hard time. But now my brother has brought a new uncle!

At first, they hung out without much thought, but after what happened yesterday, Woohee seemed to think differently. 

“Not that guy.”

Woohee said firmly.

“But what if my brother says he likes it?”

Hyunwoo wasn’t as uncomfortable as Woohee, but he was equally uncomfortable. I still had vivid memories of the old man, but it felt like someone new was trying to take his place. And Woohee felt it especially strongly.

“I don’t like it!”

Hyunwoo laughed awkwardly at Woohee’s words. He tried to remain neutral as he was always on his brother’s side, but it wasn’t going to be easy.

It was then that a new guy with the same name as you started talking to me.

“Do you want a snack?”

Woohee turned her head so Hyunwoo asked the question for her.

“What is it?”

“Fried bread corners. “They said there were a lot of corners coming from a nearby bakery.”

Then he holds out a basket. Inside, there were a lot of the corners of the bread you often see. It looks quite appetizing as it is fried and covered in sugar. But even though it was just a corner of bread, it was delicious.

“I’ll just take one.”

I felt bad about refusing it altogether, so I picked one up. And the moment he took a bite, Hyunwoo saw a new world. Crispy, savory and sweet. The corner of the bread in his hand disappeared in an instant. Without realizing it, I picked up the next corner of the bread.

it’s good! Hyunwoo started cutting off the corners of the metallurgy bread. Before I knew it, Jaewoo was sitting right next to me. Woohee’s cheeks puffed out as she looked at that scene.

‘Bro, you idiot!’

I can’t believe I’m falling for food. Woohee felt betrayed by his older brother.