Survival Diary of a Secretarial Worker in the Wilderness - c144
#027
“Are you still not feeling well…?”
Was it because of the long flight? Until they arrived at the airport in Australia, Yun Tae-oh didn’t seem to be in good condition. Even though he had been deep asleep throughout the flight.
“Just feeling a bit tired, that’s all.”
It wasn’t just as simple as he said. It was hard to believe that someone like Yun Tae-oh, the top of the world, would look so pale just because of fatigue. It could be attributed to the stress of the wedding, although he didn’t show it, but considering he was someone who never got tired easily despite having a lot of work at the company, it couldn’t be simply attributed to fatigue.
“I think we should stop by the hospital before going to the hotel.”
“It’s not that serious. Let’s just go to the hotel first. You’re tired from the long flight.”
He’s such a stubborn guy who won’t listen to reason. Despite his continued refusal, they ended up taking the hotel vehicle that was already waiting at the airport. Although I listened to the sick guy’s words for now, I had doubts throughout the journey. Would it be better to rest at the hotel or should we go to the hospital? Or maybe should we just change to the earliest flight back? It was supposed to be a honeymoon, but travel could always come later, so it wasn’t that important.
“I want to go out and have some fun.”
They quickly checked in and went up to the room. Yun Tae-oh, leaning against the sofa, looked at me and said something unnecessary. I knew why he was saying such things. Beyond the hotel lounge window, the arch-shaped Harbor Bridge stretched out like a picture. It was much larger and closer than it looked in the pictures, so I was momentarily lost in admiring the scenery.
“I’m originally a homebody, so I love staycations the most. Isn’t it nice to see everything from the room without bothering to go around tourist spots? Let’s order some delicious food and have fun in our room.”
“Will that be enough? It’s supposed to be a honeymoon.”
“What does it matter? The important thing is that we’re here together.”
Yun Tae-oh was sitting unusually disheveled. There was a fever rising on his touched face. As soon as the luggage arrived, he searched for emergency medicine. I brought cold medicine, fever reducers, and stomach medicine just in case, but it seems they came in handy.
“If the medicine doesn’t work, we’ll go to the hospital, okay?”
“Well…”
“Sigh… Just do as I say.”
I firmly told Yun Tae-oh, who was stubbornly insisting despite not knowing his condition. His body was no longer his alone. It could be considered a duty of marriage to stay healthy together for a long time.
I regretted not having him join me for the health check-up last time. Still, I believed that he would recover quickly as he was a person with such good stamina, and I sat next to him, holding his hand.
But soon I could sense that this was not just a minor issue, but a dangerous signal. The heat didn’t subside even though I was sitting next to him, and the air in the room was thick with pheromones to the point where I felt suffocated. Wait a minute, pheromones…?
“Hyung, could this… be that?”
“Hmm… I’ve been thinking that might be the case too.”
It seemed that Yun Tae-oh also sensed the tense atmosphere. Rut… That’s what it was.
But neither of us could be sure because it wasn’t the time for Rut to come. The Rut cycle was supposed to be about a month ago, and since there were no premonitory symptoms and Rut hadn’t come even after surpassing the expected date, it seemed like this cycle had naturally disappeared through tests.
Recently, there has been a rapid increase in Omega pheromone contact frequency, leading to unstable pheromone levels temporarily. It was said that it would probably return to normal cycle in three months.
So, I never thought Rut would come after a month. It was somewhat fortunate that it wasn’t another illness, but it was perplexing.
“First, let’s call a doctor.”
I hurriedly called the front desk.
“Are you… okay?”
“I took medicine, so I’m feeling somewhat better.”
After receiving a doctor’s examination and taking sedatives, his complexion noticeably improved. The doctor explained that he would be fine for a day or two after taking the medicine, but well… since there was a better way than medicine, it was enough to improve his current condition.
“I informed the hotel that you’re feeling better after the examination. It seems like enough with food and medicine for now…”
It was an unexpected situation, but a secretary’s lunch break never goes to waste. With years of experience, I was able to smoothly finish preparing for Rut even in unfamiliar places.
“I don’t think everything’s ready yet.”
“What do you need?”
“I need this.”
Yun Tae-oh came up behind me and hugged me from behind. Then he grabbed my hips tightly as if he was about to push them away.
“That’s… Just bear with it a little longer. The sun needs to set first…”
“If we don’t do it quickly, I feel like I’m going to die.”
Nonsense. Unlike before, his voice was perfectly normal now, so it seemed like it might be a good idea to just contain him for a few days. No… Since it would be difficult for me alone if Yun Tae-oh lost his reason, it might be better to quickly calm his excitement.
“Let’s go take a shower. I’ll shower too…”
The sunlight streaming in from outside could just be covered with curtains anyway.
As if filtering out my voice, the kid massaged my hips, and I pushed him away and rushed into the bathroom. After being on a plane for over ten hours and… this being the meaningful first night after marriage, although it wasn’t really night but still, I wanted to approach it as cleanly as possible. It wasn’t something I usually poured so much effort into.
“Whew…”
Taking a shower with warm water made me a little nervous. Maybe because I’ve already experienced it before, but the situation felt even more so.
Yun Tae-oh, who was already quite rough in bed, was much more intense during Rut. It was to the point where I thought my body might break or I might die. The large male who had lost his reason resembled a wild animal.
But Rut was already something I had prepared for. If I couldn’t handle the pheromone explosion that came every few months for a lifetime, I shouldn’t have gotten married. On the other hand, since Yun Tae-oh was the one who would protect me when I lost my reason during Heat, it was a natural duty as a couple.
After drying myself off, I felt a little self-conscious standing in front of the mirror. It would be the first night replaced by a cycle I wouldn’t even remember.
I roughly dried my hair and only put on a shower gown before entering the living room, where the dim light of the lamp was illuminating the room. The atmosphere was somewhat similar to the first night.
“Hyung…?”
I couldn’t see Yun Tae-oh. His absence made me anxious. Had the pheromones exploded like before? Had he collapsed again, his consciousness fading away?
Half-running, I crossed the living room and entered the bedroom. The room was much darker than the living room, with only a few lights shining. Because I wasn’t used to the darkness, I could barely move forward.
“Hyung, um…!”
As I entered the room, something protruded from the corner of my vision, wrapping around my waist and brushing my lips. It smelled like the same body wash and shampoo. Whether he hadn’t properly dried his hair or not, damp hair touched my cheeks. A hot body pressed against mine, brushing past with an urgent breath.
I was momentarily startled by the ambush-like behavior. Such a thought crossed my mind. Ah, thankfully. It was truly fortunate that nothing had happened. I responded to his kiss with a sense of relief.
His hot flesh moved to touch my tongue. Whether it was to push me away or to entangle each other. I asked his tongue, which was probing inside my mouth. When it swept the inside, it became stiff as if it were erecting.
The sensation of stimulating the roof of my mouth and cheek mucosa as if poking was different from before. It felt like something else was stirring inside my mouth. Continuing the kiss eagerly as I felt the excitement building up.
After a while, when his short breath reached its limit and I pushed his shoulders away, he obediently backed off for some reason.
“Why did you take so long to shower? I almost came in without waiting.”
“Sigh… Are you… okay?”
This was also unexpected. Yun Tae-oh, who I thought was being overtaken by pheromones and kissing me at his whim, spoke in a soft voice.
“Of course… I’m okay.”
Yun Tae-oh’s face fell onto my shoulder. Like a large man hanging onto me, he pressed his head against my waist, breathing hotly onto my sensitive flesh. Although he said that, he didn’t seem to be in a state where he could say he was okay. It’s not so difficult to say it’s tough when it really is tough.
“Come here.”
I pulled Yun Tae-oh over and sat him on the corner of the bed. I didn’t feel good seeing him dragged over like that. He must be trying hard to suppress his boiling excitement right now. I don’t know how that’s possible, but there must be a fierce battle between instinct and reason going on.
Perhaps Yun Tae-oh had been traumatized by the past Rut he experienced with me. The memory was so vivid that he probably couldn’t even comfortably welcome Rut now.
“If you hold it in like that, it’ll only get harder.”
“…Don’t worry about it.”
I stood in front of Yun Tae-oh like that. Whether he hadn’t properly dried himself off and just put on his shirt, or whether it was soaked with sweat, I unbuttoned the damp buttons of his shirt. I undid all the buttons and sat between his legs. I undid the buckle of his pants, which were already so swollen that they couldn’t be properly hidden by the fabric, and unzipped them. He just twitched slightly, but didn’t make any other movements.
“It’s okay, hyung. I… like you in any form.”
I knew that the incident before wasn’t his true feelings. It was inevitable. The man I had been with wasn’t someone who would treat me like that. He was a man who would somehow take charge to make me less uncomfortable, less distressed. Even now, he was probably trying to control his boiling excitement and show a rational side.
While I was running away to Croatia, he said he experienced Rut once. I don’t know how he managed to endure this difficult situation with just medicine.
“We have to spend our whole lives like this, so what do we do if you’re already scared?”
I lightly grasped the genitals wrapped in thin underwear. As soon as my hand touched the already swollen part, it gave off a strong presence. Pressing with a little more force, as it wasn’t properly gripped, and bringing my lips to his chest.
“Ha… Sian.”
I kissed his firm chest and nibbled on his nipple. When I gently licked the protruding part, Yun Tae-oh let out a deep breath. As his fingers rummaged through my hair and his fingertips dug into the back of my head.
Different from other skin, stimulating the smooth nipple, I moved my hand downwards. As I grabbed his pants and underwear and gently pulled them down, he lifted his hips to make it easier to remove. With each touch of my hand to his bare thighs, pelvis, and sides, his body tensed as if muscles were tightening.
Perhaps because I intentionally didn’t touch his genitals, the hand wrapped around my waist pressed my head downwards. Since he knew what I wanted, I lightly kissed his chest and abdomen as I moved slowly downward. Skillfully avoiding the genital area and licking down to his thighs.
“Uh, what are you doing?”
This wasn’t what I had planned. I intended to leave kiss marks on Yun Tae-oh’s thighs as he did to me, but it didn’t work properly due to the thick flesh. Yun Tae-oh’s mouth let out a painful moan.
“Does it hurt…? I wanted to leave one for you too….”
Even in the dim light, I could see Yun Tae-oh smiling slightly.
“No. I like it. Leave more.”
Yun Tae-oh tapped his side. As I followed where his hand was pointing and left a kiss mark, even in the darkness, there were so many blotchy marks that they were visible.
“Here too.”
This wasn’t what I intended… But just as I was thinking that, smooth flesh touched my lips. I could tell what it was just by the sensation. It was elastic yet soft, and hot.